When do you emerge…

From a long time of swimming underwater, gliding at the bottom

Holding your breath but unable to break the surface to catch your next breath

It is like a dream, a nightmare, a half-awake consciousness you want to escape but know cannot

Or wouldn’t because you’re not ready

Or tell yourself it is pointless

Cause you will go back underwater to hold your breath

And swim and glide at the bottom

When do you see the sky

Feel the wind on your cheeks and look around with a smile

Even underwater you are frowning

Where does this all lead to

You are not swimming around in circles but know you are bound by walls

Desperately you want to break the surface

And break it for good

And maybe admire the water from above or simply let it play around your feet

The water gets heavier

You sink lower

But the water gives you a chance

It whiffs you up and you break the surface

And you don’t have to go under again